At first it was cool because I didn't have a life.
My life was full of joy being surrounded
by the laughter and cries of babies.
It made my long day short
and my weekday goes by faster to the weekend.
However, it has come to the time
where life just got real. No more running in the fields
carefree and wild with no responsibilities.
I need complete silence to focus on my study
and I want to rest when I'm home from work.
Some days I get so frustrated because I can't study for an exam.
Other days I cry because the responsibilities of a daughter-in-law,
a wife and an aunt to two kids are just too much to carry.
One major thing that makes me want to pull out my hair is the neighbors.
I dislike how they let their kids run naked in the front yard.
They don't come out to supervise their kids.
Their kids would run and scream which seems like a loud speaker on full blast.
I put aside my responsibilities to focus on the kids.
I don't self care and caged myself up in a box without realizing.
My husband tells me that I don't need to put that responsiblity on myself
but it's just how I am. I just can't ignore it, or at least ignore it completely.
